cold?

the weather's been crazy lately. it's actually chilly outside! the temperature's a little over freezing and the wind's blowing like pretty hard. i can't imagine what the people in the mountains are going through. not that i'm complaining. i like my seasons; this is just a little unexpected.

the last couple days before it got cold, it was nice (or at least what i consider nice). it rained for 2 days! considering that's the second time i've seen it rain here, i find that rather impressive. and i loved it.

when it cleared, i got grumpy cause the sun came out...that infernal ball of gas in the sky! i swear i'm like the opposite of what we're all told to be like. i like it cloudy, and rainy when i'm outside. i like it dark and windowless when i'm inside.

one of the people i'm here with recalled when she'd seen me in my natural environment (back at our computer shop in indy). she said it was dark, i had a dark desktop, and was listening to dark music. ah...fond memories. it's like i'm drawn to things that are depressing. the beautifully depressing things...

i'm reminded of the silmarilian by j. r. r. tolken. the world he created draws some fairly accurate parallels with our world. the god character had what parallels to angels that would sing constantly. the song they sung was the history of the physical world, and they sang reality into existence. the devil character and his minions didn't like that so they sung dissonance into the song. but even the dissonance when mixed with the angel's song, was beautiful. and so all the evil designs were twisted into the divine purpose, and came to good.

all those things i'm supposed to hate: the dark, the rain, the clouds, the depressing music...i wouldn't say they bring a smile to my face, but they please me. there's a place for everything.

well...i've rambled on enough. wish me more rain that i may dance in it.