leave

i know i told everyone i wasn't coming home until i was all done out here, and i continued to think that up until last week. now the unit assures me they can live without me for a bit so...i'll be heading home for a couple weeks in late june. i hope they'll be ok while i'm gone; it makes me nervous to leave them. i guess one of two things will be realized when i get back to the not so fun place: either the unit will have been fine and they'll be more willing to let me skip out on work, or things will have not gone so well and they'll appreciate me more. i guess we'll see.

that's the major thing that's been going on with me. things are getting more and more routine as time goes by. i'm even managing to get a few new projects off the ground, and make some real improvements to our IT infrastructure. this is truly a weird feeling as i've always subscribed to the 'if it isn't broken, don't fix it' mentality. making improvements doesn't fit into that too well (or it gets put on the back-burner). could this mean i'm running out of things to do? that would be a weird feeling too as it seems i've been go go go since i got here.

well, i've got an early morning tomorrow so i'll get going.

one more night loving the evening for it's relief from the heat...one more night contemplating whether to dig into some snacks...one more night rocking out with my tunes...

oh johnny wishes he was famous
spends his time alone in the basement
with lenon and cobain and a guitar and a stereo
and while he wishes he could escape this
but it all seems so contagious
not be yourself and faceless with a song that has no soul
- our lady peace 'innocent'