birthday

i try to keep my birthdays under wraps, but our personnel sergeant posted a list of everyone's birthdays (to include year) on her door. that pretty much made it impossible to keep it a secret. i went into work on friday and the commander made it a point to find me and wish me a happy birthday. for the rest of the day, the sergeant major made it a point to quietly sing happy birthday whenever he passed me too. it was pretty ridiculous. if there would have truly been something special about it, maybe it would have been ok. but alas, i'm still in a war zone and it was a normal work day. not to mention i'm getting old...i especially feel that way around all these youngsters. one of them asked me how old i was, and i asked if almost dead was an age. i can claim that right?

anyway, i got the package from dad and mom this week. the CDs are awesome; flyleaf and fireflight rock! the snacks are pretty cool too. one of the chilli cans broke open, but i managed to clean most of the stuff up. some of the letters take some extra care with chilli on them, but that does make things interesting. all those people with normal looking mail are boring.

well, i'm going to get back to enjoying my day off. i hear there's volleyball to be played a little later. it's pretty hot (90s) for it, but i'll take what i can get.

hoping with each new day
i'm moving forward, i push the fear away
and i let go
'cause i'm so through with barely hanging on
leaving what's in the past behind
i come closer to crossing over the line
and i won't stop
until i get what i've been fighting for
you've said it all before
tell me again that i am strong
tell me again that i won't fall
i need you here to fix me where i'm wrong
take me beyond what i can see
break me, make me believe
you have made me all i need to be
- fireflight 'all i need to be'